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Saturday, March 14, 2009
Can You See the Joker Flying Over
So while I should be studying for my finals like a good UC student, I decided to check out blogspot again. In further attempts to procrastinate, I am not only reading other peoples bloggities about their lives, but sharing a bit about what's going on in mine as well.
Winter Quarter + 18 Units = a LOT of work, but not as much as IB. Ironically enough, I ended up hating my American Studies class, which I was really looking forward to. Sounded like a colaberation of history and english-how could it go wrong? Easily, apparently. Very easily. I don't anticipate wasting anymore time on that subject matter. On the other hand, my rather difficult Sociology class on Popular Culture was kinda fun, and extremely interesting. Had any of you actually gone up to Davis with me, I'd reccomend it to you :P We basically talk about different forms of popular culture, and sub-cultures that arose among social minorities in contestation to the power bloc.
English is so-so, I can't wait until I can take a real English class next Quarter. English 3 is basically IB English 12...condensed into 10 weeks and not quite as intense. I am, however, 99% sure that I'll be majoring in this...sorry, but I love reading, and I might as well do what I love as I waste the next 3-4 years of my life on school
And then there's 2 more classes, but I'm tired of talking about academia...it's making me feel guilty for not studying more diligently...
ANYWHO, I've really been in a spiritual dilemma as of late. I know that I have been called by the Gospel to go out and make Disciples of All Nations, sharing the love and good news that is Jesus Christ. I know this and I really do want to do this. But having spent the last 4 years of my life surrounded by non-Christians, I find myself stuck in the rut of not wanting to offend anyone. I really do want to share this message with them, because I love them so much and want them to come to know about this amazing relationship they can have with God our Father. But I don't want to feel like I'm pushing religion onto them, because that's not what I want to do; it is all done out of love and compassion, not out of any religious zealotry screaming 'repent or die'. And I can't get away from this feeling that God is really calling me to this. EVERYWHERE I go I'm surrounded by this, so it seems like He definitely has a plan for me somehow in the field of Evangelism. Yet I guess I lack the courage to actually step up and put myself out on a limb, even if it means being God's messenger those who I care for most, bringing them to realize how great a God resides in their heart and desires to know them Personally. AROEINSKFJSLFJ it's soooo frustrating! So I guess I just want your guys' prayer in this...also, if you're one of my non-Christian friends...expect a conversation when I see you next. I"m not trying to bombard you with my beliefs, it's done out of true caring for you and wanting to know where you stand and how I can help and I don't think I'm articulating myself well cuz I'm tired so I'll go to bed now....but seriously, prayer would be great.
Winter Quarter + 18 Units = a LOT of work, but not as much as IB. Ironically enough, I ended up hating my American Studies class, which I was really looking forward to. Sounded like a colaberation of history and english-how could it go wrong? Easily, apparently. Very easily. I don't anticipate wasting anymore time on that subject matter. On the other hand, my rather difficult Sociology class on Popular Culture was kinda fun, and extremely interesting. Had any of you actually gone up to Davis with me, I'd reccomend it to you :P We basically talk about different forms of popular culture, and sub-cultures that arose among social minorities in contestation to the power bloc.
English is so-so, I can't wait until I can take a real English class next Quarter. English 3 is basically IB English 12...condensed into 10 weeks and not quite as intense. I am, however, 99% sure that I'll be majoring in this...sorry, but I love reading, and I might as well do what I love as I waste the next 3-4 years of my life on school
And then there's 2 more classes, but I'm tired of talking about academia...it's making me feel guilty for not studying more diligently...
ANYWHO, I've really been in a spiritual dilemma as of late. I know that I have been called by the Gospel to go out and make Disciples of All Nations, sharing the love and good news that is Jesus Christ. I know this and I really do want to do this. But having spent the last 4 years of my life surrounded by non-Christians, I find myself stuck in the rut of not wanting to offend anyone. I really do want to share this message with them, because I love them so much and want them to come to know about this amazing relationship they can have with God our Father. But I don't want to feel like I'm pushing religion onto them, because that's not what I want to do; it is all done out of love and compassion, not out of any religious zealotry screaming 'repent or die'. And I can't get away from this feeling that God is really calling me to this. EVERYWHERE I go I'm surrounded by this, so it seems like He definitely has a plan for me somehow in the field of Evangelism. Yet I guess I lack the courage to actually step up and put myself out on a limb, even if it means being God's messenger those who I care for most, bringing them to realize how great a God resides in their heart and desires to know them Personally. AROEINSKFJSLFJ it's soooo frustrating! So I guess I just want your guys' prayer in this...also, if you're one of my non-Christian friends...expect a conversation when I see you next. I"m not trying to bombard you with my beliefs, it's done out of true caring for you and wanting to know where you stand and how I can help and I don't think I'm articulating myself well cuz I'm tired so I'll go to bed now....but seriously, prayer would be great.
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